"One can never consent to creep when one feels the impulse to soar." ---Helen Keller

Friday, August 30, 2013

LIFE HAPPENS! Reasons for My Absence

I am a planner by nature. I like an ordered planned out day...spontaneity is not for me!!!. Of course, I am pretty sure God has a sense of humor, because He always pairs us with our opposite...hence, the old saying "Opposites Attract." The idea works for more than magnets.

Well, life sometimes gets in the way of our plans. Several years ago, I was on a mission trip where all the work I had prepared for months in advance fell apart. I had worked so hard to plan the days for a Bible school type setting for little ones. In my role, not only was I thinking about the hearts of the little ones we would reach, but for the teenagers who I would be in charge of and how they would be used and touched in their daily endeavors with the children. There were two versions of me, in other words two groups of teens who would set off each day in the opposite direction. The plan was that we would have abundant groups of children to teach the Gospel to each day.

Well, the other group had just that. They came back with magnificent stories to tell of their day with more children than you could imagine. We, however, went to our location, and not one single child was waiting for us. There I had a group of teens all pumped with tons of my work unused. Not a good thing for a planner like me.

To make a long story short, I wrestled all week not with my disappointment for all my hard work going to waste (well, maybe just a little disappointment), but with how my teens were going to leave with anything of value on this mission trip. I had a few sleepless nights praying, and as always God met me and didn't disappoint, BUT...

It was not according to my plans.

We did have a magnificent last two days, and God did work in the lives of those teens, but HE worked mostly in mine.

As we were leaving the final day, I shared with the teens on the bus while traveling back to meet up with the other group, the struggles I had faced and how God had used the situation in spite of my best laid plans. One of the other adults shared a Bible verse that has become one of my favorites.

"The mind of man plans his way, But the Lord directs his steps." ---
Proverbs 16:9

I can make all the plans I want, but if I am walking with my God, He will direct my steps and He knows better than me what needs to be accomplished.

Well, my summer has been so different from last year's, and all my best laid plans have flown out the window, and are surely on Pluto by now.

I want bore you with the details, but it has been a series of highs and lows. I am listening God:)

Good...engaged daughter.
Bad....My mom fell and fractured her hip.
Good...She was making a great recovery. Hard but on the road to good.
Good....Busy making wedding plans.
Bad....Step dad diagnosed with cancer. Pretty grim diagnosis.

Tired... traveling and making tough decisions.

Throw in a few other things that a private person like me doesn't share, and you have a formula for a worn out girl!

On one of lowest days, I stopped to check in with Twitter, and a famous person I follow, quoted my verse above. The Lord is trying to stop me and let me know He is control.

School is back in session, and what is supposed to be my last year was going to be smooth sailing!? Right? Hmmmm.
A new science coach to work with and train at the other schools that are a part of the grant, but I LOVE her and am thankful for her. Two new principals, and too many new teachers to count!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! So much for a well oiled machine for the last year. Positive note, I will get to work with and help some awesome young energetic teachers!

BOTTOM LINE...I am back in session, and will do what I can each day with a grateful heart for my many blessings. Life happens, and it is not always according to my timetable or my plans, but it goes on, and I don't want to miss anything!!!!

Thank goodness for rainbows...